God is good. God is always good. God is good in every situation. In our blessing, He is good. In our unfaithfulness, He is yet good. In whatever comes upon us, God is good. Whether our trials are the making of others or of our own bad choices, God is good.
So, because He is good, He can be trusted. He can be trusted absolutely. He never fails, and will never fail us. God never forsakes us, though we are found faithless.
God has called me to be his own, to be a part of his people. He has called me to a high and glorious purpose, and to an intimate relationship with Him. He has called you to the same. We differ only in the details of our lives, not the truth of our call.
I know the truth of God's call. Its certainty surpasses the certainty of this day's sunrise. It is beyond doubt. I can build my life on the faithfulness of God's good call. It is a firm foundation. It is the firm foundation. This I know well.
And yet I wander. And yet I disobey. And yet, presented with this wondrous life - future and present both - I choose to play in the slop with pigs.
How can this be? How can a man - intelligent, educated, having seen the goodness of God over and again - make choices so appalling?
God! My God! Help me! Save me! Rescue from this pit into which I throw myself! Have mercy, O God! Have mercy, O my God!