Have you ever been puzzled by a scripture verse, wondering what it means, and if God is really true to his word? I mean, there seem to be cases where the Bible makes a promise or a statement of cause and effect, but it doesn't seem to work very well in life.
I have made a career of wondering and asking God what's up with this. One of my favorite hang-ups used to be from Psalm 37:4: "Delight yourself in the Lord; and he will give you the desires of your heart." You, too?
I worked diligently at it, being careful to snuff out passions that might prevent my "delighting myself" in God. It didn't work very well. The harder I tried, the more I had to admit that the source of much of my delight was not God, and in fact, it seemed like God was the source of a lot of trouble.
But in it all, I stumbled along toward one end: I wanted to know God, to live in his presence and have a relationship that brought true delight.
Slowly, it seemed like that was happening, and the focus of my life was increasingly on God. But what about those "desires of my heart"?
I have to say that few of the things I have longed for over the years have come to pass. Many of my deepest desires have been unfulfilled.
But over those same years, I have noticed something: The more I draw near to him, the more he becomes the delight of my life. And in this, the more the "desires of my heart" become the desires of his heart.
The central longing of my heart has quietly shifted, without overt choosing on my part, from all the things I thought were important in life to one thing: knowing - really knowing ¬¬-- and serving the One True and Living God, the God who loves me and delights in me far more than I ever could in him.
So, I guess it's true: He is giving me the desires of my heart.